\n<\/p>\n
In the excerpts released so far, Spears rewinds back to her days as a preteen in \u201cThe Mickey Mouse Club\u201d \u2014 recalling a truth-or-dare kiss with Timberlake, a fellow cast member \u2014 and to coming close to being cast as the lead opposite Ryan Gosling in \u201cThe Notebook,\u201d a role that ultimately went to Rachel McAdams.<\/p>\n
She recalls her childhood growing up with parents that she would later blame for exerting too much control over her life, telling a story about how her mother, Lynne Spears, would let her drink cocktails as an eighth grader. And she discusses the constant pressures surrounding her body, writing how, during the conservatorship years, her father \u201crepeatedly\u201d told her that she \u201clooked fat and that I was going to have to do something about it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019d been looked up and down, had people telling me what they thought of my body, since I was a teenager,\u201d one excerpt said. \u201cShaving my head and acting out were my ways of pushing back. But under the conservatorship I was made to understand that those days were now over. I had to grow my hair out and get back into shape. I had to go to bed early and take whatever medication they told me to take.\u201d<\/p>\n